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on this platform, trying to release everything that has been going inside my head today. i always find myself being okay with everything and then things will come back to me after awhile and that i will realize and question why people act like i’m nothing, like they dont even consider me bcs i’m always...
1. hari ini aku tenung muka anak aku yang tengah fokus tengok tv. sesekali dia menoleh untuk memastikan keberadaan aku. aku terfikir, how am i or us gonna raise this child? aku siap terbayang rupa anak aku makin membesar dan mula sedar, we have to grow too. by growing i mean, in every aspect in life -...
as much as 2 years have passed, i said hello again to my dashboard. i see fewer posts from people i followed here on blogger. or used to be blogspot. well i still type blogspot though when i’m tryna log in. login to my tumblr app to just casually updates on life. ive been actively scrolling on ig and...
i. This year is all about getting side money when im not looking syukur alhamdulillah.ii. Japanese is easier probably bcs i know alot more of its vocab than korean… and also how to build longer sentences…iii. Pilihan masing-masing. Ada orang suka berhutang, ada orang tak suka berhutang. Tu je. iv. I...
I came across a post from this one travel vlogger i found on youtube. She posted a reel about purpose in traveling. I read the comment section where these people talk about finding purpose. It gives me thinking about my purpose, not necessarily in traveling but not necessarily about life or anything in...
So i’ve been thinking about this. How about i work my ass off, be so successful in this industry that i open a new branch outside this f’ed up country and move out.. Build a new empire and only comes back once in a while to visit relatives and stuff. Well, sounds like a plan.
Wow, havent been on this blog for too long. Nothing much. Not like someone's reading this though tbh.Changed status this year to another, if you know, you know. If you guess it, then it is.Wow,, what..?Anyway, writing now feels more awkward than ever. I have not really looking forward to life but more to...
Missing him is one thing, feeling like you don’t have anyone in this world is another thing. Often, i sorta mixed them all up. Missing him is just like standing in the sea of people who cared so much about you, but you are alone.
I do often talk about the unprivileged, the unfairness and stuff but i dont live like them or as much as i try to help them, there’s still more that need help. That sometimes it really does feel like i’m not doing enough. Tried to come up with reasons but they sound more like excuses.I have discovered...
i. Tbh, i write everywhere. It’s messed up. Anyone, everyone can just take my words as theirs i dont really care. What’s even there anyway? There’s nothing like originality. It’s bullshit. ii. Tonight sort of the night that i should have a nonstop conversation. But no one is available. So eat...
Our friendship actually started with me asking a mutual that ive been following for years and seeing her on campus but never really greeted, for a meeting. It was kinda unplanned. And then she suddenly invited me to go on a crazy journey with her in which i did. And then the bond grown stronger. We talked...
i stumbled upon a tweet about how this guy finding means on his way into 40. he was timid in his school years, always did good deed, and into his uni years which i can relate. having stable life, alone. travelled and stuff but he said it just gets lonelier. i’m into my 30. and it kinda scares me. yes i...
I havent been on this blog for almost four months now. Wow. Twitter has taken a lot of my time. There’s actually no reason for me to write anymore. I’m finding it hard to write stuff now. These days, everything goes viral. We dont find news anymore, the news are coming to us without we even know it.
lately, i steered myself into tough situations. i lost confidence in myself. i’m not sure if it’s the right word but mostly i don’t feel belong to where i am. i don’t remember when i created this border between my parents and i or maybe i just grew farther when we are actually finally on the same...
i. im going to have my first ever training in my career journey. telling people about abah’s journey to where he is now really make me wanna be more like him although i know it’s so hard to achieve even closer to what he has. i really want to stay in this industry and work it out. its the least i can do...
11 ramadhan. aku bukan jenis yang selalunya akan open tentang sesuatu benda. especially at this age. whenever someone tells a story about them, it usually ends with me. i dont favor spreading ppl’s shits around. thus, im expecting ppl to do the same when its my turn telling them my shits which usually a...
i. for some reason, life now is so different than 2 years back. for some reason, i am no longer afraid of the future. i cant stop talking about goals and aims i have for myself and the people around me. for whatever reason, family does come first. i can say, i am no longer care about the people in the...
i am half surprised that people still comee here and read my crappy life. people are probably having a crappy life that they have nothing to do and be here instead. anyway, february had gone real slow but still, it had completely gone for this year. i remembered in 1Q84 where Tengo said to Fuka-Eri, time...
after thinking about this over and over again for the past weeks, i decided today i’m going to publish a post. recap, my last post was on november 2018 which i dont remember what it was about and i am too lazy to reread. i write from tume to time but i just don’t have the will to publish anything. life...